Thoughts
Random thoughts of mine and daily things i record.
2024.10.25.
I don't think it's dark humour when someone wishes they would've died at birth. That's someone being suicidal. And bringing up suicide in any shape and form makes me suicidal. I told you i'm not in a good shape to joke about it, yet you still do it. Respect my boundaries.
I don't think it's dark humour when someone wishes they would've died at birth. That's someone being suicidal. And bringing up suicide in any shape and form makes me suicidal. I told you i'm not in a good shape to joke about it, yet you still do it. Respect my boundaries.
2024.10.03.
Unpopular opinion: Personal Oc's do not have to be racially or genderly inclusive. Do what you do, you're in your own mind after all.
Unpopular opinion: Personal Oc's do not have to be racially or genderly inclusive. Do what you do, you're in your own mind after all.
2024.08.27.
You know how most ppl will visualize things in their head like pictures? I do too. I visualize things in 4D. When i think of a scene i see it from all angles and feel the materials, see how the fur connects to the backing and so on. Maybe that's why i'm so overwhelmed when it comes to drawing, expecially animating. I can't find an angle to draw it in, and if i do i feel like it's not enough. I have a drawing of a side profile where i also wanted to capture it from the inside. My brain needs help, I'm not from this planet, I'm beyond that. I'm beyond this dimension.
You know how most ppl will visualize things in their head like pictures? I do too. I visualize things in 4D. When i think of a scene i see it from all angles and feel the materials, see how the fur connects to the backing and so on. Maybe that's why i'm so overwhelmed when it comes to drawing, expecially animating. I can't find an angle to draw it in, and if i do i feel like it's not enough. I have a drawing of a side profile where i also wanted to capture it from the inside. My brain needs help, I'm not from this planet, I'm beyond that. I'm beyond this dimension.
2024.08.22.
I'm a victim to Tiktok again. "I'M BACK IN THE FUCKING BUILDING AGAIN??!?!" My mom said to download it to post furry videos so maybe more people will see the suits i make. No sales so far, just an addiction.
I'm a victim to Tiktok again. "I'M BACK IN THE FUCKING BUILDING AGAIN??!?!" My mom said to download it to post furry videos so maybe more people will see the suits i make. No sales so far, just an addiction.
2024.07.29.
Deleting tiktok have been incredible for my mental health, but holy shit i can't escape insta reels, what do i have to do to not fall victim to it and have ppl see my fursuits? Also i just got an orrspray and i can feel the bitter stuff down in my throat, i'm about to puke writing this.
Deleting tiktok have been incredible for my mental health, but holy shit i can't escape insta reels, what do i have to do to not fall victim to it and have ppl see my fursuits? Also i just got an orrspray and i can feel the bitter stuff down in my throat, i'm about to puke writing this.
2024.07.12.
"Art comforts the disturbed and disturbs the comfortable." - I wanted to put that quote here. Also with Artfight, I totally got the praise i wanted, i'm literally melting at the compliments i get sometimes. Btw who the fuck just writes "I love it, thank you"???? Like??? No capital letters, nothing? ToT I might just think you want me to die cuz of that piece ToT
"Art comforts the disturbed and disturbs the comfortable." - I wanted to put that quote here. Also with Artfight, I totally got the praise i wanted, i'm literally melting at the compliments i get sometimes. Btw who the fuck just writes "I love it, thank you"???? Like??? No capital letters, nothing? ToT I might just think you want me to die cuz of that piece ToT
2024.06.02.
I THRIVE off of validation and praise. If you compliment me I'll 1000% will be increadibly happy and joyous. I might die-- Also, insta is giving out our images for the AI?? HELLOO??????
I THRIVE off of validation and praise. If you compliment me I'll 1000% will be increadibly happy and joyous. I might die-- Also, insta is giving out our images for the AI?? HELLOO??????
2024.05.04.
I'm not life stock to eat me, then forget me.
I'm not life stock to eat me, then forget me.
2024.04.15.
Tomorrow i'm gonna give my portfolio to a school and may change the future. I won't even remember that day probably 2 weeks later.
Tomorrow i'm gonna give my portfolio to a school and may change the future. I won't even remember that day probably 2 weeks later.
2024.04.08.
My red pen spontaneously combusted in my hand, making me look like a murder victim, but i had my first ever macaron so today was a success i guess.
My red pen spontaneously combusted in my hand, making me look like a murder victim, but i had my first ever macaron so today was a success i guess.
2024.03.20.
Why do people keep talking to me? They are being polite but i feel like i'm about to have a panic attack with every word.
Why do people keep talking to me? They are being polite but i feel like i'm about to have a panic attack with every word.
2024.03.11.
Played fruit ninja first time in my life. It's a neat game.
Played fruit ninja first time in my life. It's a neat game.
2024.02.13.
Got a compliment that my site looked like something from 2010 :3
Got a compliment that my site looked like something from 2010 :3
2024.02.10.
Paypal sucks.
Paypal sucks.
2024.01.22.
Heads look like cubes, but are round.
Heads look like cubes, but are round.
2024.01.20.
Note to self: Make a plushes tab and a ... something else?
Note to self: Make a plushes tab and a ... something else?
2024.01.17.
Done with the doctor's appontment, i've been diagnosed with anxiety and depression. YIPEEE
Done with the doctor's appontment, i've been diagnosed with anxiety and depression. YIPEEE
2024.01.15.
Currently stressing my guts out because of a doctor's appontment.
Currently stressing my guts out because of a doctor's appontment.
2024.01.13.
Note to all bugs: STOP CAMPING ON MY HAND.
Note to all bugs: STOP CAMPING ON MY HAND.
2024.01.10.
LOL I'M WRITING THIS FROM SCHOOL XP
LOL I'M WRITING THIS FROM SCHOOL XP
2024.01.05.
Started the morning by accidentally getting energy drink in my EYE. Need to make a blog....
Started the morning by accidentally getting energy drink in my EYE. Need to make a blog....
2024.01.04.
Remembered yesterday's thought: My husband (Jeff the killer) said (in my head) that pink doesn't fit my style and i should just make the site emo and edgy. 💔
Remembered yesterday's thought: My husband (Jeff the killer) said (in my head) that pink doesn't fit my style and i should just make the site emo and edgy. 💔
2024.01.03.
I'm not stupid, i'm just smart in a strange way. | Wanted to write something else too but i forgot again.
I'm not stupid, i'm just smart in a strange way. | Wanted to write something else too but i forgot again.
2024.01.02.
Do you ever wanna draw when you can't draw and you can't do anything and just sit in place and feel like you'll have a meltdown?
Do you ever wanna draw when you can't draw and you can't do anything and just sit in place and feel like you'll have a meltdown?
2024.01.01.
Something's in my head. But what?? *Struggles to art*
Something's in my head. But what?? *Struggles to art*
2023.12.31.
What if people from different countries were different breeds? Like dogs. Just culture and habit would = breeds. And they'd like different things. I'm typing this because of my love for sour cream as a Hungarian.
What if people from different countries were different breeds? Like dogs. Just culture and habit would = breeds. And they'd like different things. I'm typing this because of my love for sour cream as a Hungarian.
2023.12.30.
Note to self: Do not look at what other people make on neocites, or else you'll get depressed again
Note to self: Do not look at what other people make on neocites, or else you'll get depressed again